- Peter Stone: This other woman, the one you saw saving your family from the suffering, did you say anything to her?
- Anne Mill: Excuse me?
- Peter Stone: You testified it was like watching another woman. I just want to know if you spoke to her before she stabbed your husband and your children.
- Anne Mill: No.
- Peter Stone: Did you try and stop her?
- Anne Mill: She wasn't real.
- Peter Stone: But you thought she was, isn't that right? I mean, that's your proof that you're insane.
- Anne Mill: No, I didn't try to stop her.
- Peter Stone: Because you wanted them dead, isn't that right?
- Anne Mill: Because I wanted to protect them. They're better off now.
- Peter Stone: Better off than what?
- Anne Mill: For facing a world without...
- Peter Stone: Without what, Mrs. Mill?
- Anne Mill: Well, isn't it obvious?
- Peter Stone: No. It's not.
- Anne Mill: Without me.
- Peter Stone: I've got news for you, Mrs. Mill. You're not so great.
- Billy O'Boyle: Objection.
- Judge Felicia Catano: Sustained.
- Anne Mill: I shelter them, I protect them. It is a hard world, Mr. Stone, and I didn't want to watch my babies be swallowed up by it.
- Peter Stone: Then why didn't you just kill yourself?
- Olivia Benson: So there's no sign of forced entry.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Coffee's on in the kitchen, empty cereal bowl.
- Olivia Benson: Just another day.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Yeah, until it wasn't.
- Odafin Tutuola: I don't know what we're looking for.
- Olivia Benson: A reason why a family was murdered.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: [entering] Hi. I got nothing. Blood's still being analyzed, not that it matters.
- Olivia Benson: Carisi, she worked here. She worked for them for ten years. They trusted her. She didn't just wake up and commit a triple homicide.
- Odafin Tutuola: She did run, Liv.
- Olivia Benson: Yes, because she walked into a bloodbath and was scared out of her mind.
- Odafin Tutuola: Okay, the diary. Delores spent a lot of time with Mr. Mill. She didn't exactly mind his company. Maybe he got tired of hers.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Yeah, maybe they were having an affair, he calls it off.
- Odafin Tutuola: Wouldn't be the first homewrecking nanny on the Upper West Side.
- Chuck Inslow: You SVU?
- Olivia Benson: Lieutenant Benson, Sergeant Tutuola.
- Odafin Tutuola: Who the hell stabs a kid?
- Chuck Inslow: Top of my head? The devil.
- Olivia Benson: Okay, how old is he?
- Chuck Inslow: Five, six. Knife wound to the belly. Ambulance took him to St. Vincent's. Name's Charlie Mill. He was wandering down the street bleeding. Neighbor's maid spotted him.
- Odafin Tutuola: He live around here?
- Chuck Inslow: That one. Door's open.
- Olivia Benson: Okay, the rest of the family inside?
- Chuck Inslow: Yes and no.
- Mavis: People are talking.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: What are they saying?
- Mavis: I ain't no gossip.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Oh, yeah? Well, I hate to burst your bubble, Mavis, but you just did.
- Tom Bernstein: You think I killed him? Please, we've been friends for twenty years, ever since we both got our break in the same issue of "New York Quarterly". We both blew our 140 bucks on beers at the White Horse.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: The White Horse. What... what's that?
- Tom Bernstein: It's where Dylan Thomas drank himself to death. We dreamed of writing our own lyrical ballads. That's what that phone message was about. We were supposed to spend three months in the south of France and write.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: And Julian pulled the plug?
- Tom Bernstein: More like Anna. She wasn't gonna foot the bill.
- [seeing Fin's look]
- Tom Bernstein: Yes, I was angry, but not enough to kill.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Why would Anna nix the trip?
- Tom Bernstein: Julian told me that Anna let the ski lodge in Vail fall into foreclosure. She was trying to keep it together around him, but he could tell something was up. Somebody killed them over money?
- Odafin Tutuola: One of the top two reasons people get dead.
- Olivia Benson: Okay, so maybe Anna's a thief, but that doesn't make her a murderer, guys. We're talking about her children.
- Amanda Rollins: Nobody's saying that yet.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: All right, what if, uh, what if she owed money to somebody that was not on the books? And she was late in paying that person back.
- Olivia Benson: Just doesn't make sense. Why would anyone kill the kids?
- Odafin Tutuola: [entering with an evidence baggie in hand] Liv.
- Olivia Benson: Tennis shoes.
- Odafin Tutuola: No, tennis shoes with what looks like a spot of blood on 'em. I found these in Anna Mill's office, in her desk drawer.
- Amanda Rollins: Jesus, I can't believe this.
- Olivia Benson: Oh, my god. Mothers don't kill their babies. Wow. Um, okay. Get 'em to the lab.
- Amanda Rollins: What about Delores?
- Olivia Benson: It's too soon to release her.
- Amanda Rollins: I gotta say, I won't be upset if it's not the nanny.
- Olivia Benson: You'd rather it be the mother?
- Amanda Rollins: How was court?
- Olivia Benson: How do you think?
- Amanda Rollins: I couldn't even step into that building. I don't care if she's crazy. That woman should be taken from the earth.
- Olivia Benson: You know, last night, I... I put Noah to bed, kissed him good night, I turned out the light, and then... and then I just stood there... watching him sleep. For two hours.
- Amanda Rollins: I did the same thing.
- Olivia Benson: [sharing a supportive hug] Sometimes life just... sucks.
- [letting go]
- Olivia Benson: Amanda.
- Amanda Rollins: Yeah?
- Olivia Benson: You should keep those flowers.
- Amanda Rollins: Why?
- Olivia Benson: 'Cause sometimes we just... we just need a little pretty.
- Olivia Benson: Doesn't get much more brutal than this.
- Fitz: I figure he's been like this no more than two hours.
- Odafin Tutuola: Son, daughter, daddy.
- Olivia Benson: Let's just hope there's no mommy.
- Fitz: We're probably looking at a seven-inch blade. The father and the daughter were stabbed 12 and 13 times, respectively; the boy, twice. None of them had defensive wounds.
- Olivia Benson: So they were killed while they slept?
- Fitz: Yeah.
- Olivia Benson: Okay, you find anything else, you'll let us know?
- Fitz: I will.
- Odafin Tutuola: The mother is Anna Mill. She works for a law firm, Schwartz, Medley, and Clarke. Neighbor said she leaves around 8:00 a.m.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: [answering his phone] Hey, Rollins. What's up?
- [hanging up]
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Charlie didn't make it.
- Olivia Benson: Okay. This is not the kind of thing that a mother should hear on the phone.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Yeah. I'll tell her.
- Bill Schwartz: Can I help you?
- Lilly: I tried to stop him.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: NYPD. I need to speak to Anna Mill.
- Bill Schwartz: Unless this is life or death...
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Unfortunately, it is.
- Anne Mill: What is it?
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Maybe we should do this in private.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: All I know is my mom raised four kids. We didn't have a nanny.
- Odafin Tutuola: It's hard raising kids while you're working.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: [seeing a framed photo] Looks like a happy family, minus the mom.
- Amanda Rollins: This is odd. Julian's supposed to be a writer, right, a poet?
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: It sounds better than "unemployed."
- Amanda Rollins: Well, he's got a money market account at Central that's worth over 1.6 million.
- Odafin Tutuola: Must have written a hell of a poem.
- Amanda Rollins: And it's all from salaries from a GBT Legal Services.
- Odafin Tutuola: What's that?
- Amanda Rollins: Um... okay, they've been providing supplemental legal services for major law firms since 2011.
- Odafin Tutuola: Why would they hire a poet?
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: [on his computer] 'Cause they didn't have a choice. Julian was the president and the sole shareholder.
- Olivia Benson: You killed them... didn't you, Anna? You did this.
- Anne Mill: Of course I did this. I had to.
- Olivia Benson: You had to kill your children?
- Anne Mill: Don't you see? They're so much better off now.
- Delores Alverez: You didn't come to the Bronx to apologize to me.
- Olivia Benson: Actually I did, but I do have some questions that I'd like to ask you.
- Delores Alverez: To help you convict Mrs. Anna?
- Olivia Benson: I'm just trying to figure out what happened and why she did what she did.
- Olivia Benson: I spoke with Mrs. Mill several times. The first was shortly after she committed the murders.
- Billy O'Boyle: Objection.
- Peter Stone: The defendant admitted she murdered her family.
- Billy O'Boyle: No, she did not. She stated that she killed them. It does not become murder until the People establish the necessary mens rea. It is the defense position that a mental defect prevented her from ever forming the requisite intent.
- Judge Felicia Catano: Sustained.
- Peter Stone: Please continue, Lieutenant.
- Olivia Benson: I spoke with her shortly after she killed her husband Julian, her daughter Rachel, and her son Charlie.
- Peter Stone: And how did she act?
- Olivia Benson: She was traumatized by their deaths, she was emotional, she was disoriented.
- Peter Stone: Did she appear sane?
- Olivia Benson: Yes.
- Peter Stone: What about the last time you spoke with her?
- Olivia Benson: I've been a cop for twenty years, and never in my career have I seen anything like this. She convinced herself that murdering her children and murdering her husband was the only choice. So, this woman deserves to be in prison. She's not "legally" insane.
- [last lines]
- Peter Stone: The jury couldn't accept that a sane woman would kill her children.
- Olivia Benson: Who could?
- Peter Stone: I meant legally sane.
- Olivia Benson: I know what you meant.
- [her phone rings]
- Olivia Benson: Lieutenant Benson. Thank you.
- [hanging up]
- Olivia Benson: Anna Mill just hung herself in her cell.
- Olivia Benson: Mrs. Mill, um... there's no evidence that your home was robbed.
- Anne Mill: What are you saying? You mean somebody wanted...
- Olivia Benson: That's... that's what we're thinking now. Did... did anybody have a grudge...
- Anne Mill: My children are dead. What kind of a grudge would cause somebody to kill my children?
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Finally got Julian's voicemail back from TARU. Listen to this.
- Tom Bernstein: [on recording] Julian, I'm gonna kill you for this. You screwed me, pal.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: It's from a Tom Bernstein. He lives on the Lower East Side.
- Amanda Rollins: I think Mr. Bernstein was pulling your leg. Anna Mill's got over $3 million in securities and cash.
- Odafin Tutuola: That after paying off the mortgage on the brownstone.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Hold on, hold on. So what, we're just gonna forget about Delores?
- Odafin Tutuola: I mean, she's in Rikers. I don't think they're gonna give her the key. Liv wants us to cover all the bases.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: So, the amounts that that law firm billed, the clients never noticed that they were paying expenses to an outside company.
- Olivia Benson: That she owned.
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: It was actually her husband's, but I-I just don't think he was in on this.
- Olivia Benson: Why, because poets don't like money?
- Dominick Carisi Jr.: Okay, Anna's office was on East 49th Street. The mailbox was on West 121st Street. Julian didn't do anything all day. If he was in on this, it would have made more sense if he'd just picked up the checks himself.
- Amanda Rollins: Would have had to take a lot of trips, because GBT took in over $3 million in the last six years.
- Judge Lee Wong: How do you plead, Mrs. Mill?
- Billy O'Boyle: [she glances at him] Mm-hmm.
- Anne Mill: Not guilty.
- Billy O'Boyle: By reason of mental defect, Judge.
- Peter Stone: The People request remand.
- Judge Lee Wong: Mr. O'Boyle?
- Billy O'Boyle: Your Honor, my client's on so much medication, she needs help to get out of the shower. She is not going to run.
- Peter Stone: Judge, she confessed to killing her family.
- Judge Lee Wong: $2 million bail. All cash.
- Billy O'Boyle: Your Honor, my client's accounts have all been frozen pending another criminal proceeding.
- Judge Lee Wong: Well, then she certainly has a problem. Next.
- Billy O'Boyle: I know, I know. What am I doing here? Well, turns out that my client, her firm, has a satellite office in Chicago, and I did some work for her once upon a time. Mrs. Mill is a... good lady. Bedbug crazy. But a good lady. You look, uh... I don't know, distraught?
- Peter Stone: Three murders does that to me.
- Anne Mill: I loved them. I loved them all more than anything.
- Lisa Martin: Then I don't understand why you killed them.
- Anne Mill: I ate lunch at a diner every day round the corner from my office. I bring my work. I sit at the counter. And last week, I saw a cockroach. And it was scurrying its way up the metal hood right above the grill. And it could feel the heat... and it was doing its best not to fall down into the sizzling grease. And up he'd go, scurrying up the hood, and then he'd slide back down, catching himself on the ledge. Over and over, up and down. And then finally he just dropped.
- [imitating sizzling]
- Anne Mill: Ssss. Sss... pop.
- Lisa Martin: And you related to the bug?
- Anne Mill: No, I was the ledge. My children... I had to save them before they dropped onto the burning grill.
- Lisa Martin: Which was inevitable?
- Anne Mill: Wouldn't you rather die in your sleep, Doctor? 'Cause I couldn't bear to watch them pop.
- Lisa Martin: She's what the textbooks call a family annihilator. It's typically an upper middle class male - in this case, a female - who can't stand to see their family suffer.
- Olivia Benson: So she kills them.
- Lisa Martin: In her mind, it's better than the alternative. It's usually triggered by a big financial setback.
- Peter Stone: Like when you're caught stealing from your clients.
- Lisa Martin: Her life is over. She wants to spare her husband and her children the pain of going on without her.
- Olivia Benson: [to Stone] I'm sorry, are you buying any of this? Because to me, it sounds like some made-up syndrome cooked up by a defense attorney.
- Lisa Martin: Bottom line: she believed that the murders were necessary, even though she knew they were wrong.
- Olivia Benson: Good, then she's not legally insane.
- Peter Stone: Not to us, but to a jury looking at a woman who killed her children, she's per se crazy. And Mr. O'Boyle's going to make a seven-course meal out of it.
- Olivia Benson: What can I do?
- Peter Stone: Prove she planned the killing?
- Peter Stone: Well, it's a start. Anna knew what she was gonna do the night before she did it.
- Olivia Benson: Look, we're splitting legal hairs here. Insane, not insane. She kissed the nanny. She said "goodbye." She planned on killing her family.
- Peter Stone: And she deserves to be punished.
- Olivia Benson: Exactly. So what kind of legal system do we have if a woman like Anna Mill could end up in a hospital and not in prison?
- Billy O'Boyle: Well, can I buy you two a drink?
- Olivia Benson: Actually, I have a son at home. But thank you.
- Billy O'Boyle: I don't know how you do it. I mean, I know you're top of the line at, uh, one, but how do you rate at the other?
- Olivia Benson: Goodbye.
- Peter Stone: Good night.
- Billy O'Boyle: [she leaves] Open mouth, insert foot.
- Olivia Benson: [seeing Rollins' bouquet of flowers] Those are pretty.
- Amanda Rollins: I said "not at the office." And he said that they're not for me.
- Olivia Benson: Who are they for?
- [Rollins indicates her baby bump]
- Olivia Benson: Ah. Smooth.
- Billy O'Boyle: Everything has to be perfect. That... that is exactly what Anna Mill had in her head. "I have to. I have to. I have to. I have to go to school, get a job, get married, beget 2.3 children. If I don't, I have failed. What happens to my 2.3 children? What...?" Anna Mill, she heard voices in her head. She heard the voice of her own mother telling her "You need to earn money, or the world will eat you and your offspring raw." She heard Betty Friedan and Gloria Steinem telling her "You are the equal to any man." She heard Hillary say "Aim high, but rely only on yourself". "I have to, I have to, I have to, I..." And then what happens when you can't? It's enough to... drive you crazy. Crazy to do what Anna Mill did. You would have to be... crazy.
- Peter Stone: You know, I almost fell into Mr. O'Boyle's trap. I very nearly stood up here and told you that today's woman can do it all. She can have everything. But that's a lie, and we... we all know it. Surely women can have it all; but just not all at the same time. This case, it isn't about feminism. It's about what was going on in Anna Mill's head when she stabbed her son, her daughter, and her husband. Did she know what she was doing? She told us she wanted them dead. Did she know it was wrong? She let the police believe her nanny was the killer. That's it. It's that simple. Under hundreds of years of case law, she is not insane. And here's the truth: I feel for every woman in this courtroom and the completely unrealistic expectations that society puts on you. But that does not allow you to kill without consequence.
- Olivia Benson: [seeing the blood at the crime scene] I was gonna get this bed for Noah for Christmas.
- Billy O'Boyle: I don't know when I'm gonna realize, the fairer sex is the more sensitive sex. So you gotta hand it to 'em these days. They gotta be smart, pretty, bring home the bacon and fry it up in the pan . Hmm. You know, that sounds like an opening statement.
- Peter Stone: Oh... why didn't I think of that?